Thursday, May 31, 2007
EVERYONE HAS THEIR WEAKS POINTS.
SO DONT TALK TO ME AS IF YOU DONT!
I ADMIT I HAVE MY WEAKNESSES.
BUT AT LEAST I THINK IM NOT AS
FAKE, HYPOCRITICAL
AS YOU!
BITCH.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
i didnt steal your mum
nor did i kill your parents
so STOP giving me that fucked-up attitude of yours
WHENEVER you LIKE it.
fake
pretentious
hypocritical
manipulative
these are the ONLY words i can think of
to describe
YOU
Sunday, May 13, 2007
changes.
dont everyone go through that?
some people like the change,
some people wont.
people change from being
childish to matured
matured to childish
anti-social to social
and in all different ways.
for me.
i believe i have.
to be someone who thinks too much.
call it a little bit more matured
if you want to.
in the past,
i didnt worry much about anything.
for example,e
studying used to be for studying,
enjoying the essence of studying.
at present,
studying is not something i enjoy,
im doing it for the sake of reaching my goal.
for the life i want to lead in the future.
this change really shocked me.
i cannot believe i changed.
i dont want my thinking to be like that.
i wanna be what i used to be.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
i ran into someone
just that other day.
im deeply affected by it.
i still cant believe
how come you have changed.
someone who used to be
shy
giggly
smiley
to someone who is
arrogant
act cool.
it disgusts me.
and it hurts.
decided to revive my blog. (:
recently, someone told me that i look very trouble-free; carefree.
i guess how you look at life will play a part in this.
many things happen without a reason,
and you wont understand why it has to be you.
but how you face up to them is the important point.
brooding over senseless people isnt worth it.
your life is yours.
you can control it to a certain extent. (:
people are very complicated.
dont you think so?
they can be so hypocritical you wont believe it.
one second,
they treat you as if you're transparent,
next second,
they act so nice towards you.
is it for something they need or what?
im pretty sure they know it themselves.
some, they claim to be your good friends,
but they bitch about you at your backs.
some people, they do it to vent their frustrations.
but they dont come back and act all nice.
thats the difference between venting anger
and talking behind your backs.
so what are good friends supposed to be?
calling you everyday and asking 'how are you?'
going out together everyday?
so does that mean,
if one day,
you lose contact with your friend for 2 months,
she is degraded to be your acquaintance?
or does good friends mean...
even if it means not contacting for 3 years,
when you need help, she will still be there for you?
lets all think about it.
what do good friends really mean?
who are really our good friends? (:
Sunday, March 04, 2007
she was just looking through people's accounts.
people who used to be in the same class as her.
everyone at that point of time wanted to quit,
or maybe just have a change in teachers.
however, she was the one who quit the first.
never did she realise, everyone stayed on.
and they are all doing so well.
all of them are most probably able to cut out a career from ballet.
but her?
who could she blame?
herself. sje was influenced just by a mere few sentences.
even someone who could not dance as well as her in the past,
is doing so well now.
what about her?
she's now just a girl who is filled with regrets.
envying all those girls whom she used to dance with perform all those concerts.
and that was what she wanted.
ballet was the one and only thing she loved all her life.
but she gave it up just like that.
just because of a minor setback.
what a useless girl she is.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
i was just thinking about some things.
random thoughts. but it sparked off because of something i read.
who were you to criticise my dream of wanting to become a psychologist.
she kept criticising my character and my grades.
but when i found out the truth.
your grades are much worse.
and your dream ambition is actually the same as mine?
well. we will see who gets the job in the end. (:
Saturday, February 03, 2007
place for emotional issues = you're wrong
arent blogs meant for saying all the emotional stuff like what jiayi says.
but i think twice about it now. i dont think so.
it is not a place for me to say my darkest feelings anymore.
it is not a place where i can confide all my fears and unhappiness anymore.
she killed my interest for everything.
and she killed my joy.
inside her, she's secretly happy for ruining me.
because she's always the angel
and i am the devil.
